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Free talk: Trivial things I am troubled by

Hello!! It has been awhile, hasn’t it? I realised I haven’t been very nice to this blog in the least. If this blog were a pet it would have been very lonely and I feel kind of sorry for it… the thing is that everytime I sit in front of my keyboard to write something down I feel like I am saying things no one is waiting for. “These kind of things are more of a twitter-thing, aren’t they?” I end up feeling insecure and then delete my draft. This has happened several times already, until something inside of me started to yell that I should get a grip,

so here we are!!

The topic of today would be “trivial things I am troubled by.”

I think all of us experience these trivial things in life that end up troubling you somewhat. I’m sorry, I’m not being very clear about it, so I will just provide a concrete example:

Trivial trouble 1

When I am watching an anime I can suddenly feel the immense urge to watch one of my favourite Japanese stand up comedian pairs do some sketches or talks, so I pause the anime I am watching and watch one of their shows. Whilst I am watching a show, however, I suddenly feel really curious about the developments in the anime episode I abandoned… in fact, it could be said that the continuation of the story is on my mind the entire time but my urge to watch a comedy video overtakes that curiosity for the time being, so I endure my curiosity for the sake of my urges. This gets on my nerves after awhile so I naturally go back to the anime episode I was watching which then gets interupted by another comedy-urge.

As you can guess, this goes on and off with in between some Nico douga-live streams of my favourite live-streamers and maybe some recordings of radio-shows with Minagawa Junko in them. Recently she is in this show called “Super Lovers” so she is back to having a regular radio show hosted with her co-actors in the series…anyways…

what I am trying to say is that, this is something that is honestly troubling me quite a bit. I feel I might be someone that is very true to their desires…but I am also very insecure about choosing what to spend my time on, so it is hard for me to focus on one thing. It always feels like I am wasting time and am scared I will regret it, so I go back and forth a lot.

Does anyone else experience the same troubles? Does anyone have any advice for how they overcome these kind of trivial troubles?

Definitely leave a comment to tell me what you think and maybe some advice!

Thank you and see you later!

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Project B

Project B finally public, it’s… Antibeat!!

“What part of me do you like?”,
if you tell me I’ll do anything for you.
Everything, everything, just everything, well if you tell me that I’ll just…
Hate, hate, hate, hate,
I absolutely hate this me that loves you so...

Ahh, there are quite some stories I have to tell when it comes to Antibeat.

First off the vocals were recorded in May when I was feeling quite down thinking about a whole bunch of stuff.
I had a few family members and friends of the family that died close after each other, it’d be a lie to say I wasn’t affected by that. Don’t worry, I’m not going to share my dark anime main-antagonist story. There are some things even I don’t like to talk about so I’ll spare you the awkwardness haha.  Let’s say I was in a really weird mood overall and started doubting and questioning other parts of my life as well. For those that know what anti-beat is about, they can probably take a guess at what I was so troubled by.
That and the exams were also coming closer, stress max!!

So, I decided to do something about it!!

What can help more than some good old rock to blast away those insecurities and turn them into energy?
Music has this odd power to make you feel understood and not alone with your thoughts!! Lyrics and atmosphere put into sound what is living inside of you.

I felt understood and comforted, you know what to expect from a certain song when you turn it on!!
Think of all the angry teenagers in the past that listened to music as if it was some sort of comforting drug.
Singing it released a lot of tension!! Anti-beat definitely did that to me, there is one cover especially I was inspired by, can you guess which one? It translated the agression and feelings of the main character from my interpretation out perfectly!! So I tried my own go at it and tried to bring it even closer to what I thought the main character felt like!!

Now I’m all happy sappy again haha. Of course I still have moments I feel really down, some things can never be returned and as for insecurities once you have them they always are able to come back to bite you but that doesn’t mean you can just throw your life over your shoulder!! The idea should be to “keep moving forward”. The present is what it is, a present. So enjoy it even if it takes some effort to!!! => Sounding like some old grandma there so just call me Anbaachan or something…

Anyways, with that message I’ll leave you to this song!!
I hope you’ll enjoy my vocals despite their unpolishedness and that whatever I tried to cram in there reached you!!
From now on I’ll do my best more to come up with better and more polished stuff!

A great thanks to the people that helped me out with this!!
Eon, Kumi and saint!! Definitly check out their stuff whenever you can!!

See you soon for the other projects to get released!! (whisper don’t give up on me whisper)

-Anba-
List of planned projects here

 

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Bonjour tout le monde, I’m back from the Japan Expo!!!

Hello, yellow!! How are you doing?

Phew, that was such a busy week there , it was really bananas!!
4 days of walking and walking and metros and MORE WALKING!! I actually lost 3 kg’s when I came back from Paris, can you believe it? Country bumpkins like me in big cities doing things akin to exercise lead to this. It wasn’t even the slow walking, IT WAS SPEEDWALKING THROUGH PARIS LIKE WE’RE ON RAILS (slight exaggerations) not to mention the bazillion stairs to climb to get to the 2nd floor of the eiffel tower, I think I heard somewhere people climb these things for a marathon and I’m honestly not sure if my knees could ever agree with that!!

Talking about eiffel towers, obligatory Banana pointed at the eiffel tower picture because this is relevant don’t even start with me!

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I had a lot of fun at the Expo,so many amazing cosplays and booths and things to do!!
I’ve never been to such a large scale event before and I often got lost!!
I did find really good Haikyuu cosplay though SO GLAD!!! If anyone has any idea who they are definitely contact me so I can contact them about this picture and to thank them for bothering them with this when they were busy haha!!

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The most memorable memory for me was the Jamming session outside with all the french youtaite people and some random people that just came to sit with us and joined in. That was so cool!!!
Just chilling on the grass with Vuvu and Sumashu on the guitars and everyone singing!!
I even received art from 2 really cute and nice girls right then and there, I was so, so happy!!!
And I also received a drawing from Ten-chan and someone at the Wakanim-stand when I finished my live there!! That was a huge surprise, I expected some people would know who I was but not that many!!

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Man, I got super-super nervous meeting some of you so I hope you’ll forgive me my awkward and shyness. Honestly, when I’m in my element I’m quite good at this stuff but right then and there with all the baguettes and some personal turmoil I got the heebie jeebies and nearly passed out, phew!! Glad I didn’t. Congratulations to myself applause (I’m such a loser haha).

With all the attention I felt a little bit like a celebrity for a little while albeit a very awkward and nervous one. Especially the hugging and picking up was heart-attack worthy for me!!
But I’m fine now!!

Calm, calm. Back home and calm!!!
Culture shock MAX-level!! So much bisous and hugs phewww!!!

I’m currently working on a video for the frenchies that were there to see!!
It has all of us in it and if I can be bothered I might make a slightly more censored version for here!!
Maybe, perhaps!!! So much trouble though rolls.

ANYWAYS, as an ending note for this post I’d like to say désolée pour le retard mais je voudrais dire merci beaucoup à tous les francophones qui m’ont dit bonjour à la JE!! Ce fut un plaisir de pouvoir vous parler! Tout le monde a été très gentil avec moi et j’ai beaucoup apprécié! J’espère que ce ne sera pas la dernière fois qu’on se voit!! Merci beaucoup!!

J’espère vous revoir bientôt!!!

-Anba-

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Going to Paris: Japan Expo 2014

Hello, yellow!! How are you doing?
I was doing fine until I ran out yesterday without a jacket and got drenched. Seeing the omnious clouds gathering I for some reason figured an umbrella would do the job but I didn’t count on the strong wind, biting cold and Miro shaking off the rain in my face!! So uh… Now I have a cold (GJ).

But no worries!! I’ll be sure to take care of myself. Bananas contain plenty of vitamins after all!! I’d better feel good by the time I’ll be going to Paris!!

“Why the holy cheesecrackers are you going to Paris?”

You might wonder.

Well, this time I’ll be going to *the Japan Expo!!
*The Japan Expo is a pretty big scale, European Anime/Manga/Gamers/etc… event
held annually in Paris for about 4 consecutive days!! It’s pretty coolbeans yo!

I’ve finally gotten my train tickets, hotel and everything reserved so it has been a 2000% affirmed that I’ll be going!
That’s right, your favourite Banana royalty will be attending! AWESOME٩(◦`꒳´◦)۶!
For those ready to meet me, it’s best to keep your expectations low or I’ll get super-nervous!! (  : x ; )/
This year ought to be fun though since I’ll be meeting up with them baguettes!!

Frankly, I didn’t think I’d agree to a meet up so fast but then there are a few people there I’ve been itching to meet and since we live in Europe and are neighbours and all that jazz WHY NOT?? #YOLO and stuff, Am I right?? (Please don’t hit me I’m kidding!)
I’m really excited!! Ten-chan will also be having a booth so keep your eyes on twitter and places once I get more information where she’ll be standing!! I’ll be sure to keep you updated about these kind of things ;’)! She’s coming in cosplay.
Yes. This is important information.

I’ll be attending the Japan Expo on the 5th and 6th = saturday and sunday respectively?!
I’ll also be singing 1 song live there. It’s forget-me-not, with Shindehai and Vuvu!! That’s another thing to look forward to!!
This brings me, Shindehai’s apparently going to be there with his Voxmakers buddies at a booth and also selling his special Tai-reflections CD’s!! There are only a 100 copies so I’d be fast if I were you!! Coincidentally (uhuh) I’m on it as well, as is Vuvu so definitely get your 8 euros out and come get them!! There’ll be a full version of the One Punch man song on it etc… Kanipan’s on it as well and well to keep it short you’ll love it and won’t regret it I mean look at the fabulous jacket!!:

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Too hot to resist, am I right? ;’)!!
LOOK #2!! There’s me!! TEEHEE
Here’s the video where he introduced his stuff and where the rest of Voxmakers lays down the plan for you!!:
http://youtu.be/cCIsR6fwotw

I’ll also be visiting a bit of Paris in between!! I hope I can make pictures of the Eiffel tower and all the other really cliché touristy things. It’s been ages since I’ve been to Paris so I kind of forgot a lot about it lmao. If anyone has any recommendations as to where to go definitely let me know! I’m currently on a hunt for food you can only find there, I’d love to try out something really weird!!!

If you have any more questions regarding my coming to *the Japan Expo don’t hesitate to leave me a message in the comments here or something!!

 

Et voilà c’est tout. À bientôt, j’espère ;’) !!

– Anba, The banana prince –

 

*I’ve been recently made aware on twitter that some people dislike it when you add a “the” before “Japan Expo” but I think it looks more natural and gramatically correct in English so unless you have a proper reason as to why not you’ll have to live with it lmao. It’s honestly ridiculous anyone’d get mad about such a thing haha.

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IT’S OVER 9000 !!!

IT'S OVER 9000 !!!

I’ve always kept my sub-count on private because I figured that shouldn’t be anything anyone should be concerned over except for me as an indicator to how I’m doing. But recently I’ve accidentally put them on public cause I’m stupid and then noticed the number.

Jesus Christ guys, OVER 9000??? REALLY??

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I really didn’t think I’d ever get that far when I started out but seeing this I’m more than determined to go further!!!
It might be pure arrogance from my side but I have this feeling that I can!! This has definitely fueled my motivation and ambitions.
I’ll do my best so I’m deserving of this support!! Thank you so much!!
It’s really all thanks to you (not to be a cheesy asskisser here). It reallly reminds me this is not something I’m just doing on my own!!
I’ll see what I can do in celebration of this number, I’m really excited thank you so much!!

Please look forward to it!!

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Almere cosplay 2014: Afterthoughts and some pictures to share!!

Hello, yellow!! Today’s topic will be, as the title suggests, my first live experience!

I’ve already posted quite some of my thoughts on Facebook and Twitter and whilst I know it’s assumptious to believe all of you read everything I post everywhere I’m also a little scared I’ll be too repetitive or annoying about it so I’ll try to keep it as brief as I can here (oh boy).

So I went to the Almere cosplay event in the Netherlands yesterday, to perform live on a stage for the first time of my life!
For an internet-recluse like me that was an amazing step to take and I royally screwed up my first song cause of my nerves haha.
But I think, even though I cheated a little for the remainder, that I had a lot of fun !! The thing that impressed me the most was the entire friendly and outgoing atmosphere of the audience at the time!! They even came up and started dancing when I sang and that was the greatest feeling ever. I think one of the greatest honours even!! People just thorougly enjoying themselves as I was enjoying myself. Albeit me being patheticly chaotic most of the time I had the best of fun with it!! People afterwards coming up to me specially to tell me they liked what I did and everything feeling so genuine made me feel on cloud 9!! The other performances were of course beyond a level someone like me would be able to touch but it made me feel I should work harder!! It gave me this odd amount of motivation and inspiration for the future. They made me feel there was so much more out there and that was so exciting I could feel it scorch my bones haha. If those screw-ups I made are the worst I can do then I can’t wait to see what my best would be!!!

All people being so nice to me gave me the courage to ask for their pictures as well. Oh, I was really nervous asking them but the response was so kind and people seemed to be delighted by it that I gathered up some more and asked more people!!!
I also told them I’d find a way to get them to see the pictures here so after this I’ll be hunting down the people I took pictures of !!! *insert battlecry*

Here we go!! Video’s will be uploaded later here after editing it into one video haha!!

 

Amongst these were the people that danced during my performance and that came talking to me about it afterwards!! Some even said they became a fan and that was just the best feeling ever!! The rose was something I received from the Tamaki cosplayer which made me laugh a whole lot haha they were so nice and adorable when they were just chaotically jumping around!!

Amongst these were the people that danced during my performance and that came talking to me about it afterwards!! Some even said they became a fan and that was just the best feeling ever!! The rose was something I received from the Tamaki cosplayer which made me laugh a whole lot haha they were so nice and adorable when they were just chaotically jumping around!!

 

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A shot of a few great people!!!

Tamaki PLZ.

Tamaki PLZ. HAHAHAHA.

 

The doll creeped me out a whole lot ahah and the board was just adorable!

This Grell cosplayer though HAHAHA!!

 

A picture of a Rivaille cosplayer and his friend!!!

A picture of a Rivaille cosplayer and his friend!!! Look at the both of them doing the greet!! Hehe

A compact size'd dealer room with someone subtly photobombing on the right ;'p!!!

A compact size’d dealer room with someone subtly photobombing on the right ;’p!!!

Super-nice cosplayers!! They all look so good uuhuhuh!!!

Super-nice cosplayers!! They all look so good uuhuhuh damnit!

Me abusing my backstage rights by harrassing Godvalley into a picture with all members TEEHEE!!

Me abusing my backstage rights by harrassing Godvalley into a picture with all members TEEHEE!!

 

Godvalley being adorable dorks haha!! Definitely take a look if you see them around!!

Godvalley being adorable dorks haha!! Definitely take a look if you see them around!!

A Hanji cosplayer that even knew of my WAVE that touched me so much!! Her Japanese was awesome as well even though she was self-taught!!

A Hanji cosplayer that even knew of my WAVE that touched me so much!! Her Japanese was awesome as well even though she was self-taught!! That expression, SO HANJI haha!!

 

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COULDN’T RESIST

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HIME HIME SUKI SUKI DAISUKI HIME〜♪

Godvalley performing on God level!! They had so much charm!! Definitely check them out if you get the chance!!

Godvalley performing on God level!! They had so much charm!! Definitely check them out if you get the chance!!

A beautiful genderbend Natsu cosplayer I walked into!! I really liked how she pulled that off!

A beautiful genderbend Natsu cosplayer I walked into!! I really liked how she pulled that off!

"I found a gang of homestucks" is what I literally said when I walked past them followed up by a "C..CAn I take a picture please?!".  Yeah,... A+ on social skills Anba...

“I found a gang of homestucks” is what I literally said when I walked past them followed up by a “C..CAn I take a picture please?!”.
Yeah,… A+ on social skills Anba…

Look I found Rin and Len!!!

Look I found Rin and Len!!!

Cosplayers doing their th... Is that Jean sexually harrassing someone on the left?

Cosplayers doing their th… Is that Jean sexually harrassing someone on the left?

A really pretty girl asked me if she could take a selfie with me !! I was all doki doki'ing haha.

A really pretty girl asked me if she could take a selfie with me !! I was all doki doki’ing haha. Too bad the room was so dark /sobs/.

I found the doctor and their human friend!!!

I found the doctor and their human friend!!!

I even have a video of that just because it was really cute haha!! They were trying to waltz and in between nearly broke each other's arms when I asked them to twist HAHAH!!

I even have a video of that just because it was really cute haha!! They were trying to waltz and in between nearly broke each other’s arms when I asked them to turn HAHAH!!

MIKU!!!

MIKU!!!

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That’s me on a stage there!! Is it even possible to see me? I got a funy wig on my head from one of the organisers too that was was hilarious haha. The soundman had a hard time to see my signs cause I wasn’t super-visible over the equipment he had planted. I should drink more milk and grow some more /sobs/.

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The Almere cosplay staff + GodValley + Banana royalty being very uh… Gracious!!
SAY “BANANA”!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR A GREAT TIME!!!

 

 

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What’s new for Croɴest and things to look forward to!!

Ladies, gentlemen, genders all around and in between, all bananas and other fruit !!!
I, your ever loyal ruler and self acclaimed conquerer of your hearts, have a very exciting anouncement to make!! As of recently….

*drumroll*
CRONEST….
*DRUMROLL INTENSIFIES*

HAS IT’S VERY OWN WEBSITE, WOOPYEAH!!!
It’s a real one!! All official and stuffs, with the “.com” domain name!!!

Here, here: http://cronest.com/

For now there’s obviously not a lot on there yet but DO NOT HEED for soon there shall be stuff to blabber about! What can you expect? Well I personally envisage it as a way for you to keep updated with new works and I’m hoping to collect the thoughts and commentary of the 2 Gods of visuals that have consented to joining me on this fearful journey to the promised lands and beyond *twirls gracefully*.
Nothing is set in stone yet so we’ll see how it goes, for now I wanted to anounce this milestone!!

I bet a lot of you are thinking “So what’s the big deal( ・´ー・`)?” well it’s a huge deal for me!!
It means we have a HQ, a home!! A cool and snazzy place to link back to and to update people on officially!! Thanks to saint impulsively buying the domain name after cronest talked about maybe making one! In any case, it’s just completely awesome and this royal me is feeling completely moved emotionally, what a feat!!! The honour is great, your lord is pleased!!!

Making a website obviously also means things are starting to get rowdy again,
Expect something great by the end of May – the beginning of June!!!!
A nice way to start off your summer vacation, right?!

I’m aware the exams-depression is still looming over us for now I know I hate to be reminded of it as well but let us not falter!! Soon all of us students will be released again to bring havoc upon the world. Ahhh youth, so refreshing!!
For those who already have a job…
Well, you’re having it hard, huh? *picks nose apathetically*

I’ve also been meaning to ask your opinion about somethings!!
I’ve gotten the question before that “if I brought out a CD what would I name it?” well before I can think of names I need to bring out something, right? It’s kind of arrogant and obnoxious to assume people would even be slightly interested (though tbh I already thought of some names) so now I was wondering how much interest there is actually? If you have some time please do the poll, your opinion would definitely help me out for my final decision to try this out !!! Everything starts out small but if believed in properly can be nurtured to TITAN size!! And I believe in this so I hope you can believe in me !!!

Thank you for your attention and see you again soon !!!

Yours sincerely, Anba,
The Banana Prince.

PS: Noragami, Haikyuu, Babysteps are my personal favourite manga’s right now!!
What have you been into lately?